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The past few months have been strange. Pain is a constant and quite recently my mortality has been a looming asteroid. And I'm scared. But resolute. No more doctors. No more pills. Whatever follows I have accepted. Google hasn't been helpful, suddenly every symptoms screams DEATH!
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Nosebleed

Life is beautiful and I'm prepared to live long. Or...At least enjoy living. A random nosebleed. Just when the strange pains got bearable then a spanner had to be thrown into the mix. It's not the nosebleed, it's the things I've been trying to ignore that seem to think a nosebleed is how to get my attention. I officially give up. No more doctors too, that seems to be an expensive past time.

Leon bridges - Brown skin girl acapella cover

End o

The last few weeks have been relatively awesome. The recovery period has had it's ups and downs, some of the downs I thought would fade away but they haven't. It's not about "why me?" anymore, I know there's people living with far worse pain. Now I'm just determined to not let the pain get me down!!!!! Angeke!!

Sigh

I feel so inadequate. Genuinely. I want him to want only me but that isn't the reality. That scares me because I want only him. What to do? I know I don't completely trust him anymore but...I love him. Unquestionably.